Artist

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note to self:
i am simply Trying
 to share my heart.
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from Love
i am always making mistakes, learning, trying, failing (repeat)

But i love it...
i love creating; working with my hands.
i love to watch watercolors.
i watch the paint spread onto the surface as it creates its own raw natural beauty.
i love our home and our people.
i am very proud to be
from and living in Micronesia, Guåhan.
i love my little Family...
everything i do is for them. 
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Details of the details
The black lines in my paintings were meant to amplify the raw beauty 
while also representing my deep appreciation for the *details in
the simple things.
My way of saying “Thank You” to the subjects i paint. 
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inspiration: Love
the scales on a lemmai fruit, the lines in a delicate flower petal, the banana tree leaves colors changing from green to yellow to brown.
 The way they
just Give
and want to Heal;
it's worth more
than anything gold promises.
my painting above, like in all my paintings, is my hope
 to 'grow back to simple'. 
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simplicity
By painting my appreciation,
i hope others feel
what i try to capture
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When you truly appreciate something,
you are Grateful for it
you Respect it.
You Love
and take care of it.
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Or at least,
this is my hope. 

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My details: 
with each step, i am grateful.
When i was three years old, 
i fell hard
backwards
onto the lower part of my head/neck.
i was paralyzed from the neck down.
 i remember not being able to move.
Crying.
Scared.
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Initially, the doctor told my mother that i was pretending and to go home.
When my mother realized the that i wasn’t pretending,
we were rushed to Hawaii to see a different doctor where my mother was told that i may never walk again. 
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However, my mother refused to believe this. 
When we got back to Guam,
My parents put me through physical therapy they could afford.
They would bury me in a hole in the sand up to my neck,
place an umbrella over my head,
and waited for me to make my way to the water.
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like water...Let go, Flow, and Trust
My mother knew how much i loved the water. 
Before my accident, i could sit in the water all day.
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She knew that my Love for the water would help me.
and she was right (like most mothers are). 
Weeks
turned into 
Years.
Digging
turned into
crawling.
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Slowly...
but with so much Love, patience, and prayers,
i was able to make my way to the water. 
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beauty in “broken”
Not being able to walk when i was younger, forced me to be Still.
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i painted and drew things around me.
i was able to see things from a different perspective.
i saw the details in everything.....
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most days i was angry
and often cried, ‘why me?’ when people were cruel. 
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Now that I’m older, i still cry, but i no longer ask that question. 
i realize there was/ is a purpose for it all.
i know now, especially when i paint, that this Purpose
has absolutely nothing to do with me.
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Not being able to walk and still not being able to walk "normally" is my daily Reminder
to be grateful for the *details. 
 i try to remember when it gets really tough
that lots of beauty and Love
come from (and to) Spirits who are 'broken'. 
i share my story only to help and heal. 
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#goals: give
for us
 i am happy to share that through your support, in 2019, we have donated
paintings\ prints\ or monetary donations to various organizations. 
 
 
Sagan Kotturan CHamoru 
Sanctuary Inc. of Guam 
Micronesia Climate Change Alliance
Alee Shelter Guam /Catholic Social Services
Guam Memorial Hospital
 
 Rainforest Alliance
One Tree Planted 
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SYM for your support 
“People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.* "

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies. Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and sincere people may deceive you. Be honest and sincere anyway.

What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight. Create anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous. Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, will often be forgotten. Do good anyway.

Give the best you have, and it will never be enough. Give your best anyway.

In the final analysis, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway.

~Mother Teresa”

 

I love you. Thank you

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